I know that it has been forever since I last posted. Life has been crazy, and I have this new love of Facebook, that can be a little addictive. So when the kids are asleep, instead of blogging, I Facebook. It's so fun to see all the old faces, and some new. My family is on there, and it's fun to keep up with them. My cousin told me she feels like she sees us all every day, and it's nice to know what is going on in everyones lives, hence the addiction!!

I have been thinking... what can I blog about right now? What is interesting and fun for people to read? I definitely do not have a knack for writing, I am not the witty, creative writer.. it's intimidating!! But I decided I have it figured out, at least for the next little while.

Starting March 1, I am going to post small or large, humorous, bittersweet, and some little heartfelt memories I have of my mom. I have always wanted to do a memorial, or something sweet in remembering my mom, not for only myself, but for my family as well. My mom passed away on March 29, 1996 in an automobile accident, and I sometimes feel that I miss her today, more than I did during the early years of our loss. I do think this is a very personal thing to blog about, but I also thought... This is going to be good for me, as I have only kept the memories alive in my mind.

The last couple years have been a roller coaster of emotions for me, from Carter, my car accident, and of course the big move, and other things in between, and I feel that I have "wanted my mommy" more now than ever. I find myself thinking of what she would be like as a grandmother, and also a friend to me. (I was still a bratty teenager when the accident happened.)

I will never, ever stop missing her, but I also know that this has helped, "Melanie" to evolve, and it is apart of me, part of the reason I am who I am. I would give anything to have mom back, of course, but because that will never happen, I want to live by her standards, by her humor, and her inner beauty as well as outer beauty. She too, had many ups and downs, but at the end of the day my mom was a champion, triumphant in all ways. So I hope you enjoy my posts, and to my family, I hope that you will laugh with me, and walk down memory lane with me.

So March 1, I will be doing one post a day until March 29th, as a memorial to my mom, your mom, your sister, your friend, confidante,and wife.